Turbulence

i need answers to unasked questions;
i need to feel all the emotions.
who m i, i ask myself m i really who i m;
i feel pain i feel sorrow m happy sometimes;
sometimes m lonely still i don't feel human enough;
i really don't feel alive.
some skeltons haunt me, memories which r supposed to be good;
still here i m when everything is moving
in the middle motionless i stood.
they will never understand me cauz probably there is no real me;
m changing m changing with time i dont feel nothing not even me.
i need answers to every mirage i see i need answers to
every truth,
what lies inside of me would never really be understood.
there is a fire burning raging from the time i opened my eyes;
i feel strange at times doing things which ordinary ppl never could.
everytime the path is dark, everytime i take a step back;
a bull inside me arises to fight for every inch, yeah fight for every inch i should.
it ain't easy living with the burden i shoulder
not a burden of guilt but a burden of responsibility;
responsibility of my potentials my ability.
m i the 1 m i the one m i the one i ask my self again n again n again
afraid of the answer i never reply back m afraid of the unfelt pain.
is it normal to feel bad for everything which ain't good ;
is it normal to have goosebums on just the mention of ur nation's name;
is it normal to seek vengence n denomination;.
is it normal to be heartbroken n still be cold stone;
is it normal to behave JANG n be JAABIS alone.